A letter from Sunshine: 2002
In starting out this blog, I am trying to give my readers a little insight into the many layers that make me, me. So far, you have gotten the smoker-me, the passive lover-me, the creative writer-me and now I am offering you the chance to read someone else’s view of me. I figure through all this, you will possibly, maybe, hopefully come to know me, even if I am trying to remain anonymous and Lextra Dirty.
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I saved this letter for many reasons, and one of those reasons must have been to share this with you. We all need a little sunshine in our lives. This was my sunshine in 2002 when the world was against me and out before me all at the same time.
I was 19 years old.
I was confused.
I was in college. I was madly in love with a boy who couldn't keep his dick in his pants.
But luckily, I had friends that left notes like this in my bedroom. Notes that made me realize how fucking awesome I really am. Enjoy, my readers. This is true friendship. This is love.
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Oct. 18, 2002
Dearest XXX,
This is a note for you to come home to. The paper came from my journal, which I swore I would never tear a page from. But, for some reason, I wanted to write you this. Oftentimes, I write better than I talk, and I wanted to try and tell you some things more poetically than I can verbalize.
If someone was to ask me, "Who is love?" my response would be, "XXX." You somehow manage to try to lock your heart away, and yet never can, because (and I truly believe this) you are made of the stuff people wish to merely experience.
All my life, I have hoped to find an individual who truly inspires me. I never expected it to be you. You, who never stops loving, despite how much you think you shouldn't or wish you wouldn't.
You, the only person that can always warm my heart each time I see you. You, radiance and turbulence in one sacred soul. My entire life could be spent trying to realize what took you only nineteen years to achieve. In truth, you have helped teach me more about love in the last few months than anyone has my whole life.
The Chinese call love "symbol," or "Ai," which they consider the most powerful emotion because the symbol combines "person" and "heart." I'll leave you with this quote;
Hurt and pain come as part of life.
No one is exempt.
But that is no reason not to love.
Suffering accompanies life,
but love is affirmation.
Amore Siempre,
Sunshine
Posted by Lextra Dirty at 11/9/2009 5:36 PM 
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Categories: letters to me
Tags: love XXX passive sunshine friendship college journal creative writer smoker amore siempre cheating
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